I have other problems. | anonymoose546's Blog

So I started this blog in regards to my DUI.  However while it's still a factor in my life (I see my PO every other month until August and can't drink for that period of time, plus I have the blowy thing in my car, but other than that I'm not feeling it like I was 3, 6, 12 or 18 months ago).  The gravity of this just kind of hit me, and I wanted to write it out.

I have other problems.  This is the best revelation I've had in awhile.  Problems unrelated to this charge.  Problems not stemming from it.  Problems with people and circumstances that are completely unrelated to alcohol or this DUI.  I have normal problems.  If there's a silver lining to these new and significant issues. it's that I have reached a certain point of equilibrium, and that I am getting through this DUI, because it is no longer the primary focus for me.

It's weird, because in the moment you never really try to comprehend what's happening, you're just getting through it.  In that same vein now that I have gotten through it for the most part it means I have to acknowledge how fast that pain fades.  It goes away quickly and you feel great.  Same thing happened after my first one, and I told myself things were different.  The license gets reinstated, the breathalyzer gets taken off and you are a normal person again.  The pain fades fast.  Something to think about at least.